CLEAN. not really.

i swear to god i'm trying
i TRULY am.
but it's impossible.
it's like jumping off a building
and being told not to fall
it's like crawling out of a scorching desert
then see someone holding a pitcher of water
but holding it out of your reach.
that's how painful it is, trying to stop.

you say it's stupid
that it's hurting myself
but why is it that it's okay for you to hurt me
but never okay for me to hurt myself
how does it fucking affect you anyway

sigh
i tried. seriously, i did.

i honestly don't know what the point of this post was.
like, i just need that time of the day
to let the melancholia seep out.

TTFN

- Dina x

there ain't a thing you can do that's gonna ruin my night.

so i did a revamp of my blog.
like url and all.
nothing really terribly major.
but there are changes.
JUST LIKE LIFE ((omg so deep))
but yeah. lots of things have happened.
like literally i don't know where to begin.
but i feel like i've just been dragged
like out of the darkness
and maybe learning to see again.
if you get what i mean.
but this shit honestly is not easy.
but really, WHAT IS EVER EASY?

maybe i'm just blogging this positive shizzle
cos i had quite a good day.
like taking into account it IS monday
and the first day back to school after term one.

i am so disgustingly affected by the smallest thing.
like seriously.
even the most trivial things can like hurt me.
ew that makes me sound like a loser
but THE TRUTH HURTS SOMETIMES
hahaha.

but here's where this positive note ends.
a more negative post after haha.
BUT I'M TRYING NOT TO LET ANYTHING GET TO ME.
but i need to have a little rant.

TTFN

- Dina x