catharsis, noun: I'm tired but my heart is still sore and my eyes are still wet
its crying till your eyes feel like butterfly wings on the tips of magnolia flowers, its making your heart pour out in drops over the finished bottle of tequila. crying is only rain after the sunshine has sucked out enough light to veil the world in it's darkness and some days I watch the grey hide the twinkling stars and I wonder how could anything be seen as beautiful when it shuts out every form of light until you are left with only gaps where the sun fought to pierce through and you think that if this was catharsis, you wouldn't have to battle against everything to feel like an empty nest because I LOVE FEELING EMPTY. but if it equates to feeling alone then I'd pierce my gut every night so that I can remind myself that loneliness is an emotion and it cannot destroy you unless you destroy yourself first
so if crying is carthasis would suicide be that as well?
-dina xx
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