antithesis

"love is the antithesis of selfishness"

i wonder if i'm loving you the way you deserve. i don't know how to wrap my head around the fact that you love me, that somehow, you saw through all the bad parts of me - even the things that i couldn't overlook. i'm so lucky to be able to breathe around your existence, to melt into your embrace, to hear your mouth caress my name like a prayer. god, i'm so lucky to be able to love you and i wish i knew how to articulate this better. i never saw this coming, to be entirely honest. i didn't think i could love like this again, nor did i ever figure anyone could love me this way. i mean, no one's relationship is perfect, but you sure as hell make this one feel like it is. and when you love someone this hard, you'd become anything that person wants you to be and it stops becoming about you. the brainspace you exist in becomes big enough just for you and him and when it is just the both of you, the world becomes a rumour we become unfazed by. i love you and i know i tell you this everyday, every parting moment, but i hope it doesn't lose any meaning to you, because each time i say it, god knows i mean it.

"and if he ever taste mud as bitter as my poetry, then i win. and you love me. hallelujah."

please don't stop now, i don't want to exist without your love.

-dina xx