being a good person

so there's this saying I know that goes like this, "everyone wants to change the world but no one wants to change." which I guess is pretty much true. it's true for me I would say. I mean I've done a lot of stupid things and things I know I'm bound to regret later on. and I'm not a good person all the time. and you might be thinking ((if anyone reads this)) what is the definition of a good person? what qualifies someone as a good person? what differentiates a good person from say, other people? 

2013 is coming to a close and I've been quite reflective on the year I just had. I've met good friends, I've met people worth keeping, I've met people I've realised I can willingly let go of because they'd do the same with me. highs and lows, we've all had them. and of course there are so many things I would love to change! but I've been thinking lately and I've concluded you can't change other people. you can't change situations. you can't change what has happened in your life. if I wanna be a better person, I have to change. YES I'VE SAID THIS TIME AND TIME AGAIN. but I really wanna change this time. this time I might just give myself a real chance to become a good person. and if I can't do that, I just wanna be a better person than the person I am now. 

I want to be a better daughter. I want to be a better student. I want to be a better athlete. I wanna be a better Muslim. I want to be a better person!!!! and that starts with me. and sure, knowing me and me being true to form or whatever, I'll probably start going off about how I'll never be good enough for anybody and nothing good ever happens in my life and well wallow in self pity for a while. but I found a reason not to be so hard on myself anymore. 

I like how that quote basically says everything happens because of god and if god wills something to happen, it will happen. and certain things aren't meant to be just because god says so. because it probably isn't good for you or He wants to test you – you never really know. it's like saying let go an let god. 

and with so much {possibly} happening next year, so many possibilities for my family and I...this when you turn to god. because 

and "when life pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray." 

TTFN 

- Dina x