you're funny like that. you're mean like that. you're you like that. and you give me strength when I can't seem to feel anymore. and I'm so glad I have you when it feels like no one else is around. the things I don't tell anyone goes back to you and somehow my gut tells me you know me better than you know myself. of course you do. you gave me life, literally. you're my best friend when no one else is willing to be. it's funny how I talk about you like this because you're my mama and there are boundaries I must maintain. from you, I learn that trying is more important than succeeding and that it's okay to be human. but life doesn't wait for you so you have to keep going. but bottom line is, you give me strength to keep fighting even though I'm on the losing end. and from you, I understand the meaning of empowerment. thank you mama.
from you I learn courage. I learn that it's okay to cry, as long as you pick yourself up again. you taught me that everything in life happens for a reason so either suck it up or let life and your emotions consume you. you showed me that some people matter much more than myself and you taught me to smile even when everything hurts. because other people need to see you be strong and brave. because everything behind the mask is everything you don't need to be. you taught me that falling is easy and that getting up easier. you taught me that behind every tough, settled, calm composure is a person trying to be good enough for everyone, trying to please the crowd who refuse to be pleased. you're as soft as a pillow, as hard as a rock; how very apt, because you are my rock. because rational thinking and being zen would get together more places. and that sometimes even when things get tough, you've gotta learn to laugh. thank you papa.
this next segment is for several people. so if you think it's about you or if you wanna know exactly who, go ahead and ask.
to be a wall for everyone is hard. it's hard when you have to be there for everyone all the time, what you feel irregardless. I salute you because you are brave. and strong. and a fighter. I salute the better person you've become and I respect that you're trying. and you're always trying. and you taught me that it's okay; it's okay to be vulnerable. because even at your strongest, even at your peak, you are only human. you taught me that erring never makes you any less a person, you taught me that emoions can exist to pull you forward, towards the sunlight, or pull you backwards into the abyss. the abyss you struggled so hard to get out of. you don't deserve that anymore. I know this is what you deserve — to be unconditionally happy. funny enough, it was your mistakes I learnt from the most. and I learnt that even in the darkness, a kind heart and a warm soul glows from within.
all of you taught me something, but these few statements are dedicated to the people who left the greatest impact in my life.
if you were mentioned or you think you were mentioned, you're probably really beautiful. and even if you weren't, you hold a flower in my heart among the little meadow within.
the deserving; ♡
TTFN
- Dina x
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