everyone wants to know they're not alone

omg have you realised how many of my blog post titles are actually song references?
hahaha anyway that's not the point
the point is

everyone hates that feeling
when you sit there and think
and come to certain
'realizations'
and you just feel like crying
and crying
and flat-out killing yourself
and then you're swallowed by this
hollow, empty feeling
that makes you feel like
like you're nothing
like you mean nothing to nobody
that overwhelming
harrowing feeling
of thinking
you're unconditionally and forever
alone
deafened by the overwhelming silence

but here's the nice part
you're not
okay everyone's heard it
a ton of times
you're not alone
and that i'm always here with you
and you mean more to me
than anyone else
more than anything else
and you know what
it's scary how you never see the beauty in yourself
when you ruin and destroy yourself
just because you are blinded by your own opinions
you never know how much you mean to me
and you never know how afraid i am to lose you
and i'm sorry that i've never shown that to you
how much you really mean to me
but you wouldn't believe me if i said it anyway
but you're worth so much more than i could ever say
i can't emphasize that enough

you're not only my best friend
but
you're also my sister
my family
and i don't know what i'd do without you
and like sisters ofc we've fallen out
of course
we've had our moments
after all
siblings fight right?
anyway
i digress :x

but nurul khalisah
i hope you got the essence of it
and if you still haven't
i swear i will say it everysingleday of forever
until you believe me
i love you.
more than i could ever love anyone else

and remember
even if you feel like no one's there
know that i am
or god is

TTFN

- Dina x