absolutely vulnerable || the bitterness of adolescence

{again, this is quite personal}

you know it really kinda sucks when you're so vulnerable and naive to your own emotions and you always find yourself in some sort of flurry between your head and heart

and it's always so hard because when you're young

it's always the easier option to follow your heart

because simply put:

you're young, you want things your way. 

you crave certain things.

and you'd rather pick the easier option

~

when you meet someone who is so godly 

so amazing

someone who listens all the time when you speak

and someone who allows you to be yourself

you tend to open up

and trust.

trust in ways you've never trusted before 

and suddenly all that melancholia doesn't matter anymore

but then trust and opening up 

means you're putting your emotions out there

and putting yourself up for hurt

and up for whatever else might come

doesn't that make me vulnerable?

i know i really shouldn't be doing this -

shouldn't be overthinking every single thing

but it's so hard because really

when i think about it

i have so much more worth losing. 

and that scares me

if i lose someone i've gotten so (emotionally) attached to 

what is going to become of me?

what sad, sodden, miserable wreck will i be reduced to?

ah the ramblings of pre-training.

TTFN?

- Dina x