i craved to be perfect; unflawed, untouched. if i died trying, did i try hard enough? if tears could resurrect, would you want me back? if time could be undone, would you take back what you've done?what defines a beautiful person?
or screw beautiful
how about what defines plain ol' pretty?
what would make someone pretty?
is it what they wear?
is it how they carry themselves?
is it their appearance?
is it the way they're extremely thin?
or the way they are humanly curvy?
is it the way their personality shines?
or the way they smile?
or they way their presence just has an impact on you?
because i guess being beautiful, pretty
boils down to perspective, i'd reckon
but i don't know let's face it
we all wanna be pretty
or attractive
or beautiful
or gorgeous
or flawless
and we all love to be complimented every once in a while
female or male notwithstanding
~
so many definitions of good
or pretty
or attractive
and it's so hard to juggle all these different definitions
because sometimes you just wanna feel pretty to everyone
and sometimes you wanna be pretty to just one person
and sometimes
you just wanna be good and talented to everyone
i had a pretty messed up training
like i literally couldn't do ANYTHING RIGHT
i couldn't field
nor could i bat
nor could i throw
i don't know but
i guess i messed up pretty bad ):
and i got really mad at myself like
gr dina can't you do anything right
and that kind of anger makes you lose focus
AND YOU JUST END UP LOSING IT
AND AHCKKK
you're a goner
(((i'm sorry about how it does not link but wtvr HAHAHAHA)))
~
i've craved to be a million things
anyone but myself because sometimes
everyone else is really just
w a y b e t t e r t h a n m e
at everything
so
now i have a fitness regime to follow
which insya'allah i'll stick by
veryvery closely
i just want to feel pretty
i don't even want to be pretty to everyone
i just wanna be pretty to me.
TTFN
- Dina x
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