a thousand times over

there are moments when i feel so secure

like when my mom & dad talk 

and have nice proper conversations

that don't involve that dreaded word

when they're the same people they were 

before all of this mess

or little things that my parents do

like calling each other up

and the kinda stuff that's reassuring

it makes me worry a little less

it makes me feel like everything is gonna be fine again

i want to live in that feeling

that feeling of security 

of knowing that you have someone to catch you every time you're about to fall

because sometimes falling is inevitable

and if you don't fall, how you gonna learn to get up?

someone once told me that 

you won't know what it's like 

until you've been through it yourself

like slipping on wet floor

you won't know how it hurts

and more importantly,

you won't know how it doesn't

and while you don't know

you're gonna be afraid

and what's life if you keep being afraid to fall?

but who would want to catch you a thousand times over

who would be willing to stay?

who would be willing to smile at you a thousand times over

and tell you it's okay?

once, twice, three times

that's easy

but a thousand times over 

that takes determination and helluva lot of love

and dedication

and compassion

because a thousand times over

means you're willing to stay

stay.

because i don't know what i'd do if you left.

stay.

because you've become a part of me now.

stay.

because for you, i'd do anything.

a thousand times over.

happy third month, love. 

TTFN

- Dina x