S.W.A.K

this post is addressed to a certain someone (or certain few people). you probably don't know who you are but oh well. here goes nothing.

dear you,

we're in a bit of mess aren't we? and my mom used to tell me that life will sort itself out so I guess this is the waiting bit. and it's hard to figure out what we want when we don't understand who we are. it takes a great deal of courage to make a blind decision. so for that, I salute you. just keep being brave because I know you're capable of it. and I know. I know that it sucks when you keep trying for the wrong people. I know that it sucks to feel so utterly incompetent. and I hate to say this, but that is life. life is trying again and again and again. and being more vulnerable to failure each time. life is falling endlessly and then struggling to get up again. life is trying to breathe underwater. life is struggling to run when you've just learnt to crawl. there is no denying this – life is hard.

but somewhere deep inside the monster I've become, I trust you. I trust that you'll know what to do, and I trust that you're gonna come out of this stronger. and you'll be ok again. even if you're not. you have to learn to be brave again even if you can't. learn to be everything that you're not because that's what everyone expects you to be. but don't try to please everyone. just. be you, be all million kinds of you. and be happy. because I want you to be. and you're beautiful, strong and brave.

you know, you taught me all kinds of important things. but it's beautiful how you taught me that pretty doesn't mean kind. and being strong doesn't mean not feeling. and that crying can only serve to make you weaker or build you tougher. and behind every Barbie doll is a girl struggling with the desire to be perfect to everyone else and perfect to herself.

be happy. even if you're sad, lonely, angry...be happy because it kills me to see you like this.

I wish you knew.

sealed with a kiss

- Dina x