hooray for melancholic blog posts.

know what?
i love blogging.
i love having a space to write what i feel.
but then i skim through another person's blog.
and it's all fucking sad and depressing.
then i start to feel sad and depressed.
because i thought i knew this person REAALLY well.
then you discover things that she's been hiding behind all that anger and smiles.
then i feel like a fucking asshole.

like why the fuck didn't i know this before?
why wasn't i helping her?
WAIT it's cos she doesn't trust anyone.
she doesn't say anything.
and i totally get that.
because i hate saying things out loud as well.
i hate telling people things.
so if i know how it feels
WHY CAN'T I HELP HER?
in a weird way
i do love her.
and she's been hurt so many times
I GET why she has trust issues.

so thanks to all her
rather melancholic blog posts
i know what's bothering her.
but what am i supposed to do with it?
i'm only thirteen for fuck's sake.
siiiiigh.
why is life so fucked up sometimes most of the times?

- Dina x