To Rupal...

Dearest Rupal,

so i can't say this on whatsapp
because i'm not good at this stuff.
anyway, that's not the point.

i don't know why i got so mad at you.
i think it was because i was mad that Someone said something and my ego just...
you know.
she might've been upset but i just couldn't accept it from her.
and then you told me i really shouldn't be mad cos she's had a pretty tiresome day and everything is just so shit right now.
i understand that.
alot.
i understand pent-up frustration, don't we all?
but i still got mad, because it's prolly my pent-up frustration.
i had to deal with quite a few things actually over the past few days and training hadn't exactly been a piece of cake either.
so i was mad.
not at you, per se.
at everything really.

so because i had to be mad at someone/something...
you just. you know.
it was kinda the cherry on top of a perfect day, when that happened on the train.
so the dam burst and i just channeled all the different emotions into one.
anger.
but you don't deserve any of that.
i just needed to pour it all out, and i'm sorry it happened on you.
sorry, if i hurt you, sorry if i came across as bitchy.
i didn't mean to, alright?

and if you're still with me, Rupz (cos i know you're really not into reading)
i just really hope you forgive me, and told me that the way i treated you was unfair.
and that tweet.
you don't have to know which one i'm talking about.
so yes.
i am so absurdly and utterly sorry.

but i do have this theory tho (i'm almost done with this blog post, i swear)
you're usually able to be mad at someone who loves you.
so.
yeah.
you still mean the world and more to me.
please don't hate me.

Yours truly,
Dina
xoxoxo